Brokeback Mountain vs. 勞斯.萊斯 (Lous and Lois)

A week after viewing of Ang Lee's Brokeback Mountain, and after 5 readings of the novel on which the screenplay based, I'm still overwhelmed with a deluge of emotion. Brokeback Mountain is the story of two ranch hands who emark on a life-long discreet affair that is never resolved. The film further solidifies its status as the front-runner of this year's Oscar glory as the Producers Guild of America names it best picture of the year. While the box office continues to match its hype, the movie more subtly registers in my mind. This line keeps thumping on my mind:

"and I'll say it just one time. Tell you what, we could a had a good life together, a fuckin real good life. You wouldn't do it, Ennis, so what we got now is Brokeback Mountain. ... I wish I knew how to quit you."

I wish I knew how to quit you. What an overwhelming, heartbreaking line. This once-in-a-lifetime relationship has never been resolved. Talk about coincidence, around the same time Brokeback Mountain made its debut, a Cantopop song bearing the same idea popped out and since then it kept playing in my head - 勞斯.萊斯 (Lous and Lois)

It's about two guys sharing a closeted relationship. The lyrics pierce through my heart:

勞斯和萊斯　都是花樣男子 Lous and Lois are both men of full bloom
勞斯　原是個校隊的優秀種子 Lous was once the school team's seed
萊斯　只喜愛讀書 Lois had his nose buried in the books
偏偏他倆　早見晚見 Fate afforded their company day and night
每日著住同樣　純白襯衣 in matching white t-shirts
羅曼史　開場於　相鄰的桌椅 Romance began at the study table
不過二人　不敢放肆 but they contrived to keep it at bay

能成為密友　大概總帶著愛 Love must have cultivated a close friendship
但做對好兄弟　又如此相愛　旁人會說不該 that was no more tolerable than brotherly love
忘形時搭膊　自有一面退開 Though the lightest physical touch was met with a wince
暗裡很享受　卻怕講出來 the pleasure was unspeakably mutual
兩眼即使　移開轉開 The eyes might have avoided contact
心裡面也知　這是愛 but deep down inside they both knew it was love

男子和男子　怎能親密如此 How can a man be so intimate with another man
勞斯　難面對　卻跟她勾過手指 Lous couldn't help holding hands despite his fear
萊斯　偏偏那樣痴 and Lois never wished to quit him
終於一次　她撲過去 Finally he lunged forward to hold him
四目對望然後　除下襯衣 and after a gaze he took off his shirt
迷惑中　的勞斯　此時先至知 It finally dawned on the confusing Lous that
一向沒當這好手足女子 his best friend loves him more than like a brother.

能成為密友　大概總帶著愛Love must have cultivated a close friendship
但做對好兄弟　又如此相愛　旁人會說不該that was no more tolerable than brotherly love
純情何事會　讓這悲劇揭開 How could something innocent lead to such a tragedy
他真的很意外　想起相識以來 but as he recalled the time they had spent together
一起溫書逛街聽歌看海 studying, hang out, and looking at the ocean, he finally knew.

日日也親暱如情侶　底牌終揭開 Truth about their love would finally unravel

為何還害怕　若覺得這樣愛 But why should they fear if it's true love
尚在計算他又是誰　可否愛 and does it really matter if the true love is a man?
旁人哪個　接受這種愛 It does matter if nobody would accept this relationship
明明絕配　犯眾憎　便放開 A true match that is met with hatred from worldly eyes
永遠的忍耐　永遠不出來 will always be in the closet, oppressed
世界將依然　不變改 And as time goes by
只會讓更多罪名埋沒愛 This forbidden love will only bear the guilt
可要像梁祝　那樣愛 and be proven real by death.

It brings tears to my eyes and sends a chill down my spine every time I hear the song, which has duly compensated the story between Ennis del Mar and Oliver Twist in Brokeback Mountain. The song gives new meaning to relationship.