[Kong] A Music Video That Hits Home

I'm flattered and floored by the 1081 hits to my blogger profile and the 22 sites that have links to A Guy's Moleskine Notebook in less than 6 months after I launched the blog on Jan 18. I bow to you all for the support and feedback. It's 4th of July and I'm just kicking it at home and reading War and Peace along with these bloggers. Never into any of the celebrations or cookout. Too many people anywhere, everywhere.

The music video features a very special song that really hits home to me. Kong refers to King Kong falling in love with a beauty and the amazing love affair becomes a legend. I'm no King Kong nor am I interested in girls but I am a very loyal person in relationship, even if the relationship might not have worked out. Sensitive and emotional vulnerable, I wear my heart on my sleeves. If I fall for someone, I pour out my heart and swear loyalty--like that in the song--lay down my life and protect him at the expense of my safety. After a recent debacle in a relationship, I have had doubt if my being loyal is a mistake--am I being so stupid and stubborn to have sold out myself?

No. I realize I have been approaching relationship too seriously and narrowing my perspective to only looking for Mr. Right. I have deprived myself of the pleasure and fun of socializing with other men and getting to know them. Sometimes guys smile at me but I pretend I don't pay attention. I know it's lame. I find myself faring much better and more comfortably in a small group than a large crowd. I'm often at a loss for words when I see someone I like. That has to change. After years of chasing after Mr. Right and dating people off my checklist, it's time to chill, just have fun, socialize, make friends and see where life takes me.

Happy 4th everyone!