Pack Away
In a relationship or friendship that will hopefully will steer to the direction of a relationship, I need reassurance. Recently I have been feeling I'm in a slump of this knowing-each-other-and-see-if-things-work-out business. I tend to give a lot and pour out my heart too easily, to wear my heart on the sleeves and always get hurt. I need a sense of hope or if it won't work out, I need to know. So this sparkle with "him" is like another firework show--you have yet to appreciate the flourishing and the sparkling before it disappears. Maybe I should pack away my emotions and feelings before I get hurt again. Rearguarding.
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It's easy to shut down our emotions, but aren't they the reason we go through what we go through in the first place?
GRRR! I posted a comment yesterday and now it's gone! Anyway, lemme think if I could remember what I said...
Daaaah, hmm... If you need reasurrance, have you asked him the question? I think if he's mature enough, he'll know where things are heading. How do YOU see yourself in this relationship? Do you want to go steady? hehe!
Of course you can pack away your emotions, but I don't think that's you Matt. Or is it? :-)
Ask him if you haven't already. From that, at least you know where he's heading. G'luck babe!!
Happy Saturday.
Never. Ever. Ever --- pack away your emotions, hope and capacity for joy! Those are the parts of our souls that we need to embrace the most and that make others want to know us. Dating sucks and putting yourself out there can hurt like hell. No one wants to be rejected, but to not take the chance is to give up on life. You, Matt, are not allowed to do that. Just because you've met some jerks who can't appreciate the love and beauty you have to offer is no reason to pack up and hide yourself away. Buck up, young man. Continue to take chances and never give up!
matty
Thanks everyone. I'm not feeling as bad as I sound. Robert, check your e-mail okay?
Matty,
I think the problem is *me*. I was not fingerpointing. Hmmm, maybe I shall put it this way. I am on a panic mode! lol We kinda agreed that we take things slowly, get to know each other and be friends. But how would you define taking it slow? Like not seeing each other for a month? I think what I mean by packing away my feelings is I will give no more than what I have already given -- for fear of being hurt so badly again in just a matter of 4 months. I need reassurance. Does that make sense? I think he is a nice guy.
Matt dear,
Not see each other for a month? That's waaaay too slow. Cast your net back into the sea. You're a wonderful catch. (Gee, this turned into a fishing metaphor!)
Rather than seeing it as packing away feelings, maybe it would help to see it as a kind of emotional lightness. Life is a mix of light and heavy, and we can enjoy it all. :)
We live in a society where people want to chew each other up as quickly as possible, but sometimes new friends/lovers need to be savored and allowed to melt in your mouth slowly--acclimating. When the time is right, you'll know whether to swallow or spit him out.
Some people play at 33 1/3, others at 45 RPM. Sometimes we worry if he doesn't respond how we think he should because we want him to be 45 RPM. Be patient. You'll get to the end of the record, but let him take his time.
I'm fine everyone. Thanks to all who have sent me e-mails concerning about me.
Tomorrow is a brand new day. Right?
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